im actively waiting for winter

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my heart shrinks
when i am not enough for you
i wish for my heart to grow deeper and wider
like an ocean
i would be filled




i get filled up with wanting what you have
i get filled up with mean reds
i want you to forget what it feels like to laugh
when i see you laughing i can think of nothing else


girls

i want to write things mostly that will make us feel uncomfortable
but id rather give you nice things
like a melting popsicle in the middle of july
and boys in ray bans wearing premium denim